I struggle. Every day.
I am constantly walking a tightrope of morality. And I’m destine to fall. On one side is the fall of the human condition which is otherwise known as the truth, on the other side is the risk of pretentiousness and not being true to myself. I really don’t know which fate is worse. And that’s why I haven’t been able to write as much as I’ve wanted to lately.
I was once called “courageous” by someone who means a lot in my life. But, in moments like this, I wonder if she was right. I don’t feel courageous. I feel like a coward, hidden behind a mask of independence and stoicism, while inside my mind is a whirlwind of anxiousness and fear.
What am I afraid of? Rejection? No. Pissing people off? No. Being banished from the lives of people who love me? No.
I’m afraid of disappointing myself.
With one win and one loss in the past two games, I think the Calgary Flames are well on their way to securing a spot in playoffs. It’s been a tough road to travel, but the Flames have come leaps and bounds since last season. Every player has stepped up their game and contributed in a progressive way. I believe coach Hartley and his team deserve a lot of credit for making a huge turnaround in such a short period of time.
On February 12, the Flames took a road trip to Los Angeles to take on the Kings. Tyler Toffoli opened the scoring to finalize the first period at 1-0 for the home team. In the second, David Jones and Mason Raymond put he Flames ahead by one until LAs Toffoli answered back with the equalizer. It was 2-2 going into the third. Surprisingly, the Flames didn’t own the final frame and LA was up 4-2 with goals by King and Nolan. Again, Toffoli stepped up to widen the score and notch a hat trick. Mason Raymond shot back near the end of the period and the final score was 5-3 For the Kings.
Thanks to my favorite NHL team, Valentine’s Day ended well for me. I’m not a fan of Valentine’s Day, but I am a fan of Flames wins – which is exactly what happened on Saturday. The Flames hosted the Canucks and, even though it started rough, the guys came through to take the win. The first period was a mild reminder that the hometown team is fighting against the visitors for a spot in the playoffs. The Canucks were up by one goal going into the second. And then Sean Monahan showed up with two goals. The Canucks tied the game going into the third. And just when his team needed him the most, my favourite player, Lance Bouma tallied a goal at just the right time to finalize the score at 3-2 for the home team. With this win, the Flames and Canucks are now tied in points.
And now it’s time for me to take another break for a while as my Hubster and I go on our annual Bruins run. It’s going to be an interesting week as the Bruins visit Calgary and Edmonton. With the Bruins and Calgary so close in points, this might just be the year that I see my beloved Flames win against the Big Bad Bruins. And I’ll be the loudest one in the building when they do because I’ve had to listen to the bragging of my Bruins-loving Hubster for many years as our two fav teams meet in Calgary in which Boston has always won. Not this year. This is my year!
I’m sure, as Flames and Bruins fans will all agree, we can probably predict the outcome of the Boston/Edmonton match-up. But it’s always interesting, as a Flames fan to be in our rival’s building. But, like every year at this time, I become an outspoken Bruins fan for one day as I cheer them on at Rexall Place.
I’ll be back in a few days with more writing. Until then…
And on Wednesday…